It was a long day of treatment involvoing 4 separate IV chemo drugs one right after the other over 8 hours. Before I went into the chemo suite my doc explained that in this protocol, they start with the highest possible dose of each drugs and would only back off on the doses if I wasn’t able to tolerate them (which often happens). The very good news is that I was able to tolerate all of them at full dosage! Now, I won’t say that I don’t feel like I’ve been hit by a very large truck tonight – mostly just body aches all over. I have been able to eat and drink and keep everything down due to the wonder of new drugs to control that sort of thing.
Last week as I was thinking about all that was to come, I opened two different resouces, one an e-mail that I receive daily and one a daily devotional book. Both resources talked about the “gift of fragility” that we are given at those times when we ourselves have no strength of our own. I found a new place of rest and peace that day, and the more I meditated on what had been given me, I thought of the wonder of Psalm 46:1 where God promises to BE our strength – not just GIVE us strength. Today I had to surrender my physical strength to Him. I’ve always been pretty much a “can do” type person, and consequently carried a lot on my shoulders. God certainly worked with me today on giving new meaning to resting in Him and enjoying the knowledge that He is my strength.
Again, I know that the outcome today could have been much different if I didn’t have the tremendous prayer covering that I know all of you are providing. I am so very, very grateful. Thanks also for all the cards, words of encouragement, and offers of help that have come from you. What a reflection of the love of God that you have been to Marv and me! I also have my on site trooper in Marv who hung in at my side me all day. Precious gifts, all of you.
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