The Word of the Lord

In reviewing my first post  I realized that the scripture I shared might seem wildly inappropriate.  The scripture was one that had been running through my head before I ever got a diagnosis or even had an inkling that anything was wrong with my body.  To refresh, Psalm 13:6 says  “I will sing unto the Lord, for He had dealt bountifully with me”.  Two things about that scripture come to mind as I continue to meditate on it today.

The first is that my life has been bountifully blessed in so many ways that if I began to list them the list would go on forever!   One “bountiful blessing”  upon which I have recently been meditating is the parade of people who taught me the importance of hiding the Word of God in my heart throughout my childhood and adult life.  I had written in my journal not too long ago a note of praise and thankgiving to every family member, teacher, and preacher who had ever imparted the Word to me.  At this point I am even more grateful as I realize that the scriptureswhichwere planted deep within me are now continually sustaining and steadying me.  Wonderful words of  hope and life roll through my head every time I edge toward fearful or depressing thoughts.  Sometimes in these recent days all I seem to have to offer God are the words, “Jesus – Help Me!”, and scripture starts to scroll through my brain!  And most of those Words were planted way back there in Baptist Sunday School when memorization was so very easy!  

My second revelation was that if the Lord’s bounty has been so richly overflowing throughout my life, there is nothing I can do to stop it now.  The unchangable God of the Bible is good, and if He was good in my past He is also good in my future.  I decided a long time ago that I believed that GOD IS GOOD (according to Psalm 100:5) and that His unchanging nature makes it impossible for Him to be anything but GOOD.  Think about it – you can’t believe that God is good only sometimes.  Besides that, He is  eternal, meaning that He is, and has been, perfectly present in my past, present, and future!

To wrap it up, I just wanted you to see a glimpse into what has so encouraged me since I got my diagnosis on August 9, 2012, and I would like to share more of it as we go along on this journey.  Being a nurse, I have no illusions regarding what is before me in terms of grueling and sometimes miserable treatments.  But being a Christ follower, I also have no doubt that He is not only able but willing to see me though to whatever He has perfectly designed for me in the future.  

Love and Blessings to you all – it is your prayers that are carrying me!                                  Joy

 

Joy In The Journey

Getting my feet wet in the world of blogging is not the only thing that is taking me into uncharted waters these days! Let me explain, but first I want to thank my dear Jenni (McArtor) for setting up this blog for me. She is such a talented graphic artist and established the whole thing for me.

A new phase of my life’s journey began in late in July when I was referred to a Hematologist by my primary care physician. Some routine lab work had revealed that I was anemic along with some other things that needed investigation. I was thinking along the lines of “I guess I need to eat more red meat” when I met with the Hematologist/Oncologist. I certainly wasn’t thinking of anything more serious than that and I felt fine.

To make a long story short, I had more blood work which led to a bone marrow biopsy which led to CT scans and PET scans which skidded into the diagnosis of Mantle-Cell Lymphoma which dramatically changed my day to day life. Information hog that I am, I began to read everything I could get my hands on regarding this diagnosis, most of which was shocking. Words like “agressive” along with phrases like “survival rate- 2 to 4 years” slung me in all directions. After talking with my doctor on Monday and getting a treatment plan going, I’ve felt better able to breath.

I will start chemotherapy on September 5, moving toward getting me ready for a stem cell transplant (using my own ramped up stem cells) later in the fall. I’ll have to go to either Dallas or Houston for the transplant, but that is down the road a little bit.

More important than all of that, (I won’t bore you with the groundwork info again) has been my absolute humbling by the outpouring of love and support that I have recieved from all of you. I am overwhelmed by your caring, especially in the area of committing to pray for me. I say that because above all else I have experienced the peace of God which surpasses all my understanding. I have no illlusions about my own strength having anything to do with getting through this cancer process, consequently, He has been speaking to me continually through His precious Word regarding His strength,love and care which will accomplish that. I have been aware of His nearness in a way that is beyond my ability to express, but I do want to try to share some of it with you as my primary prayer is that God be glorified through my situation.

I will let this serve as an introduction and hope to will fill in blanks as I go along. The facts of my treatment are pretty cut and dried, but the work God is doing in my spirit by His Holy Spirit is deep and will take some time to develope into words that may be worth something to someone else. I am holding on to so many wonderful scriptures, but the one that seems to prevail at the moment is Psalm 13:6 which says:

“I will sing to the Lord, for He has dealt bountifully with me!”

May my song reflect His song as the journey goes along! Love to you all, Joy